The Butterfly: The Evolution of Me!

Whenever I see butterflies, I always feel a sense of peace and relativity.  Butterflies represent transformation and I connect with that.  However, the process that butterflies go through is not easy–as is life.

Human beings want quick fixes and we often only see the end result of a thing.  We hate the work that goes into our evolution.   However, in order to grow, we must face those things that challenge us.   This can often be scary and uncertain, but our desire to be much more than we are is merely a deeper push from the universe to change.

I had to face a lot of things in my life and go in places that were uncomfortable in order for me to grow.  I’d like those here to know that this just didn’t happen over night. There was a process to my transformation into the writer you see today. First, there was the phase of “not knowing” anything, about what I thought I knew. I literally woke up one morning and hadn’t a clue of who I was. Seriously. This lead me to cry out to God for him to “show me who I really was.” And did he. It wasn’t pretty. The truth was a sharp contrast to the presumption I had of myself. Then came the searching. I started hitting the library and literally reading my behind off. The first book that opened me up was The Power of Positive Thinking, by Dr. Norman Vincent Peale, then that led to How to Win Friends And Influence People by Dale Carnegie, then this led to The Autobiography of Malcolm X (changing my entire scope of thinking), which led me to The Narratives of Frederick Douglass, which led me to Up From Slavery (Booker T. Washington) and over 100 more books over a span of 30 years just about. Basically, I had to understand myself, in order to learn about life. I’d like to think that I’ve evolved and thus, my maturity is reflected in my new choices.

The Journey that I’ve taken in life has helped me to discover who I truly am…and why I’m here.  I had to face all that I feared–embracing all, being courageous in times of uncertainty; and keeping my mind open, has made me strong.

In 2003, the reader became a writer and I’m loving the new me.