I’m So Tired Of Black Folks With Self-Hatred Issues!

Not sure about the age range of the members of this site, but without giving my age; I will say that I’m old enough to remember when people were wearing Afros, shouting “Black Power!” and young enough to remember when Hip Hop took America by storm.
Basically, I’ve lived through a lot of history. And what is really quite apparent is the open level of self-hatred being expressed by African Americans.

Why do people who look like J.J. Evans on Good Times feeling it necessary to call themselves “mixed?” And just what does that mean? Is one of your parents of another race? Or are you referring to a GGG grandparent(white slave master) who raped your GGG grandmother? Or are you “mixed with Indian?” This being a fantasy for many AA’s. The reality is that only 5% of AA’s can actually claim Native American heritage. I really don’t understand what the incessant need to claim Indian heritage, given that there were Indian tribes that owned Black slaves. Link: CHEROKEE SLAVE REVOLT OF 1842: American Indians as Slave Owners Even when the slaves were emancipated, many tribes would not free theirs.

The greatest thing that ever happened to me is the day I began using my library card and learned Black history. Africa is the birthplace of man and civilization. It is the world’s hidden history. One so great, white men had to cover it up, in order to tell their lies. Whoever controls the narrative of history, can control minds. And white men knew this. How great was Africa? When Europe went through it’s Dark Age; Africa was already going through its third Golden Period. One of the greatest teachers of this history was the late Dr. John Henrick Clark. Link: John Henrik Clarke – A Great and Mighty Walk. I remember seeing this on cable over 14 years ago, before Dr. Clark’s death. And it made me want to explore more. I had already read The Autobiography of Malcolm X–3 times; The Autobiographies of Frederick Douglass and Booker T. Washington, respectively. I also learned of another great teacher, Cheik Anta Diop, who challenged the entire world model of what history was when he confronted and asserted the African Origin of Ancient Egypt. Link: A Brief Biography of Cheikh Anta Diop. Another great book, that I highly recommend for every Black person on the planet is “The Destruction of Black Civilization” by the late Dr. Chancellor Williams. Link: [ame=”http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0XPxgmbWzIY“]YouTube – The Destruction of Black Civilization, Dr Chancellor Williams – Part 1[/ame]. This book echoes and validates Dr. Clark, Cheikh Anta Diop as well as answer many questions Black people have always had about their origins and greatness of history. Originally published in 1974, this book is still in print and can be ordered. Link: [ame=”http://www.amazon.com/Destruction-Black-Civilization-Issues-D/dp/0883780305“]Amazon.com: Destruction of Black Civilization : Great Issues of a Race from 4500 B.C to 2000 A.D. (9780883780305): Chancellor Williams: Books@@AMEPARAM@@htt p://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/51xJwK5JsYL.@@AMEPAR AM@@51xJwK5JsYL[/ame].

In 2009, I completed a two volume biography of the late great W.E.B DuBois. Link:W.E.B. DuBois.

If you do not know Black history, you don’t know who you are.

As a teenager, I became curious about who I was and where I came from. Thus, I began a 25 year quest in learning the truth–NOT WHAT WHITE PEOPLE PUT IN THEIR HISstory books, but learning Black history exposed just how much they left out.

What a mighty people ancient Africans were, but then, the Trans-Atlantic slave trade interrupted that history. And ever since, Black people have been taught to believe the lies of white folks, who, quite frankly, were still living in caves when Africans were inventing math and studying the stars.

Typically, when I hear Black people exclaiming their “mixed roots.” I generally will roll my eyes. Why? It’s funny to me how some Black folks love to brag about their GGG grandparent being white. I guess subconsciously, this is a way to ingratiate themselves to whites. But Black folks who do this are really romanticizing slavery by proxy. The reason why most of us have a white GGG grandparent has more to do with proximity. Their GGG grandmother was selected, typically by age 13, for breeding or more bluntly, she was raped. The offspring would typically be sold off. So basically, the light skin and light eyes are extensions of a physical act–not a symbol of a loving union. In essence–violence is the catalyst of their existence.

It is offensive to me.

I don’t celebrate that. And no sensible person would.

What Books Changed Your Life?

 

Back in the 90’s, when I was a youngin’, I had come to a crossroad and literally woke up one morning…clenching my fist, and yelling at the ceiling: “I DON’T KNOW WHO I AM!” No, I wasn’t having a panic attack, but it was more or less like my soul was crying out to God for direction. 

Everyone is searching for something in this world. We seek the comfort of material things if we didn’t have a lot growing up, but materialism is not my religion and I wanted something far deeper.

Little did I know, in the span of 7 years, the answers that I sought would be found during a grueling decade of not only trial and error; but I’d find myself through taking trips to my local library and discovering books that would help me focus, as well as change my life.

The books that changed my life are as follows:

  • The Power of Positive Thinking by Dr. Norman Vincent Peale
  • Conversations With God Neale Donald Walsch
  • The Autobiography of Malcolm X
  • The Autobiographies of Frederick Douglass
  • Up From Slavery by Booker T. Washington
  • Makes Me Wanna Holler by Nate McCall
  • Soul on Ice by Eldridge Cleaver
  • Monster by Kody Scott, aka Sanyika Shakur
  • The Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison
  • Rich Dad Poor Dad by Ken Kiyasaki
  • The 48 Laws of Power by Michael Greene; this is a MUST READ for anyone who wants to understand how to get ahead. Link: http://www2.tech.purdue.edu/cg/Cours…s_of_power.htm.
    • The Destruction of Black Civilizations by Dr. Chancellor Williams

    Yes, I’ve read all of these books and many, many, more…but the power of what I read in these books, literally, just fed my spirit. I grew up. And I can honestly tell you, that all these years later, I’m not lost anymore. And it is because of reading books that I truly became conscious about the world and how I could impact it.

    So, I’ll open the door and ask those here, just what books changed your life

The Butterfly: The Evolution of Me!

Whenever I see butterflies, I always feel a sense of peace and relativity.  Butterflies represent transformation and I connect with that.  However, the process that butterflies go through is not easy–as is life.

Human beings want quick fixes and we often only see the end result of a thing.  We hate the work that goes into our evolution.   However, in order to grow, we must face those things that challenge us.   This can often be scary and uncertain, but our desire to be much more than we are is merely a deeper push from the universe to change.

I had to face a lot of things in my life and go in places that were uncomfortable in order for me to grow.  I’d like those here to know that this just didn’t happen over night. There was a process to my transformation into the writer you see today. First, there was the phase of “not knowing” anything, about what I thought I knew. I literally woke up one morning and hadn’t a clue of who I was. Seriously. This lead me to cry out to God for him to “show me who I really was.” And did he. It wasn’t pretty. The truth was a sharp contrast to the presumption I had of myself. Then came the searching. I started hitting the library and literally reading my behind off. The first book that opened me up was The Power of Positive Thinking, by Dr. Norman Vincent Peale, then that led to How to Win Friends And Influence People by Dale Carnegie, then this led to The Autobiography of Malcolm X (changing my entire scope of thinking), which led me to The Narratives of Frederick Douglass, which led me to Up From Slavery (Booker T. Washington) and over 100 more books over a span of 30 years just about. Basically, I had to understand myself, in order to learn about life. I’d like to think that I’ve evolved and thus, my maturity is reflected in my new choices.

The Journey that I’ve taken in life has helped me to discover who I truly am…and why I’m here.  I had to face all that I feared–embracing all, being courageous in times of uncertainty; and keeping my mind open, has made me strong.

In 2003, the reader became a writer and I’m loving the new me.